as is

Some events.

A camera crew came, set up in the alleyway outside my apartment, and proceeded to film a commercial in my neighbor's garage. For what I don't know.

It rained a lot today, and I went grocery shopping. I bought pumpkin bagels, which I am really excited about. I also bought two salty snack foods and no sugary snack foods. I thought it would be a good step. Then my roommate made chocolate chip cookies and that was the end of the reducing-sugar-intake thought. Gah.

I am currently dealing with several men who are children, and as there are not that many men in my life, it's making me wonder: are all men children? However, as one who has just confessed to losing all resolve to a (lot of) warm fresh-baked cookie(s), perhaps I am not one to talk.

A thought from tonight's shower : sometimes we have to overcome incredible obstacles to get what we want. Othertimes we must give up what we want because the obstacles are too huge. And then there are the times we are too scared to go for what we want and let the obstacles loom like nighttime shadows on the wall.

Gah. Scratch that. Currently, I hate metaphor. Give it to me like it is, Chuck. That's all I can take.

In another world, Chuck does, and says exactly what I've been waiting to hear.

Back in this world, I am preparing for a month of insane grant-writing by trying to get a leg up on it now. I am dancing around old ideas (ones I'd be well over in that other world). Without exaggeration, almost ever single muscle in the left side of my body is tight. There are a good number of dirty dishes in the sink, and I am out of laundry detergent.